A review by bookishbyso
Nash by Jay Crownover

5.0

If you're thinking '5 stars, what the f*ck is she thinking?!' then I don't particularly blame you. I rarely give out 5 stars, and when I do its either because it is an amazing piece of writing with every factor nailed, or -as in this case- simnply because I bloody love it for reasons even I cannot explain. This could maybe be referred to as my guilty pleasure, only I don't feel guilty because I love it and who the hell are you to judge me.

The Marked Men series is one that I have adored since it first came to be and Rule was first released. It just ticks all the boxes for the contemporary addict in me. The plot runs seamlessly between each book in the companion series and ties together beautifully so you get a new plot, but it still feels like part of the original one if that makes sense. I've actually fallen in love with each and every single character in this series, no joke or exageration. From Shaw and Rule in the first (probably my favourite of this series, but maybe not depending on how I feel about this one in a few days!) to Ayden, the sassy chick from textas who is tough as nails at heart and sweet and quick-witted in nature. I love all the characters so much its actually unbelievable. The friendship between the gang in this series is actually my favourite thing of all. Its so strong and selfless, so loving without being sappy and gross that I actually get a little (okay alot) jealous. You should try it out for that alone.

Anyway, about Nash. Nash is a sweet, kind guy who is tatted up from head to toe, literally. I'm not gunna explain too much about his character because you kind of get to know him a little in the first 3 books. This book starts off with *SPOILER ALERT IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THE 3RD BOOK* Nash trying to come to terms with the fact that his uncle Phil, who took him in and raised him when his bitch of a mother and stepfather kicked himout, is actually his biological father and is terminally ill with lung cancer, and rapidly approaching his end.

One of the nurses who we met in the previous book is Saint, the sweet girl who hates his guts and he doesn't even know why. Turns out she had the biggest crush on him at school and had her heart crushed when she heard the teenage Nash talk about how 'she' would need to put a bag over her head and take a look in the mirror and do something about it she ever wanted to be considered. As the story progresses however, Nash tries time and time again to get through to Saint and make her understand that who he was then is different to the man he is now, and that people change, and that miscommunication is a bitch.

Saint is and always has been extremly lacking in the self-appreciation department, lacking confidence in herself and trust in all men. Having been overweight in her teens, she was picked on, albeit not as mercilessly as it could have been, and it has effected her to this day. She lays most of the blame at Nash's feet, and struggles to get over her hang ups about him.

This book was sweet and awesome and everything I was hoping and expecting it to be. The messages it told, from learning to love yourself to understanding that people change, and that letting go is the best way to hold on. Sure, the sex scenes are pretty heavy and detailed in this book as with the rest of the series but you can either skip it or skim it or whatever if that makes you uncomfortable because the rest of the story is SO worth it and still makes perfect sense without it I found (unlike in the GoT tv show where apparently during sex is the best time to talk tactics and espionage ffs).

I would definitely reccomend it to any contemporary lover out there, new adult or adult (no kids please, this seriously isn't for you litteluns!). I just can't get enough and CANNOT WAIT for Rowdy's story, whose up next!