I struggled a lot to rate this book.

I enjoy dark books with flawed narrators/characters in general, and was really excited to read this. There were many identities, life events and decisions I could relate to in this book, so I wonder why I felt like something was off about the book, and not just in the way one would want to feel adter finishing such a book. Maybe I’ll be better able to define that element that was missing after I have some time to digest the book. 

On the positive side, I enjoyed the intrigue I felt at certain points,, and that this book managed to make me think “IS THIS HOW A LOT OF MEN CAN THINK?” many, many times (& the jury is still out by the way). I finished the book with a lot of remanining questions to myself, to the author, and about humanity in general, which I appreciate. 

One thing I will say is that this book may not be for everyone, every mood, or every mental state so I would read the blurb and glance at the content warnings before jumping into it.