I loved this book. I picked it up at Strand because of the glowing review from Emma books. I don't have any disorder, but I loved going through this journey with this character and learning more about this disorder. I've been reading more mental health books and I'm trying to get insight on these topics. Going through this journey on a fairly new disorder that I didn't know much about was just amazing. I feel like I understand more and the way that everything is described through that character's eyes, and how the information is weaved into the story was written very well. The book was well paced and I never found myself bored.

I love first love stories, and you could say it felt insta-lovey but to me, because as a teen, these kinda of things move fast(not that I know everything). In my opinion the romantic emotions are accurate considering the ages of the characters.

The second person view was a little different and I had to get used to it, but it didn't ruin the story for me, and I found it to work pretty well. I found myself just thinking of it in a sort or first person view and then remembering what POV it's in.

I will put a disclaimer for self harm in this book. There are times when it is very raw and it did scare me, but the thing is when you are reading about these serious kinds of topics, they do come with these times where people spiral down. These topics are heavy, especially since you are going through a journey with the character and get attached to them.

I would recommend this book if you think you can handle the weight of the topic and you wish to educate yourself. You could also just read it cause you like the topic obviously. The story has romance which is very bright, but through it all, Pea is still going through ARFID so it's not always fluffy.



**SPOILER SECTION**

So about the actual characters and everything. Wow.

All books have different aspects with different people and problems. What surprised me is how I related to this book sometimes even though I don't have any disorders.

Her situation with Alex was close to mine with someone else and I found that interesting because I haven't seen many books where that happens and the character thinks about it time and time again, and I can relate to this. She also had this situation with her brother where she thought he didn't care at all and they weren't close. I was never that close with my brother, and the way she finds that he is not what he seems is similar to how it was with me. We're cool now though.

I got really scared when she pulled out that safety pin and started pushing up her cuticles, then scraping her skin. I was panicking and it was giving me anxiety (not actually). And the thing is she just started to do this when I had to start Taekwondo. So I get a hair tie from my bag, and you know what they're bundled by? A goddamn safety pin. My stomach was doing flips.

This book was really cute with Ben though like damn when am I gonna get a Ben. I already got past a stupid Alex.

These paragraphs are just gonna be random thoughts

So was I the only one who liked Damian's shirts? they just made me smile you know

Also when Ken snatched that letter I got soooo pissed like how dare you steal my letter.

When Pea got into the St. Joe's, I got some serious "It's Kind of a Funny Story" vibes. I just had the same vision of it in my head.

After Pea snuck out at the end to see Ben and Todd asked where she was going, I knew he was gonna do something. I was getting some serious big bro vibes. And I just really liked the way he came around to help in the end because he does care.

I just finished it so those are my random thoughts.